Disappointment

I was almost in tears today at work.

I got my test results back from my round of tests to figure out my spotting. All normal. There is no physical reason why I should be spotting. My hormones are normal. My lining is normal.

My only option to try and fix this is birth control. So here I am, knowing that I need to go on birth control for three months. Three more months of no chance of conceiving. It's depressing, but necessary. I need to suck it up. I keep telling myself that if you look at the larger picture, 3 months isn't so long. That sounds good. That's what I keep telling myself.