I know I haven't posted in months. I'm in a funk about TTC, and since we have had our own set of problems beyond family planning, I have been trying not to focus on our infertility. I though I would post something though, because I had my annual exam this week. I spoke with a new doc. She thinks I may have endometriosis. Most of my symptoms point to it, and honestly, though I was afraid to admit it, I've been feeling like that was the case as well.

In a way, I hope that it is not true. DH has been freaking out because his aunt had endo, and it severely limited her chances to have children. I have another ultrasound at the end of the month (3rd or 4th?). I can't remember all I've been through at this point. In a way, I've kind of given up on having children. I'm no longer really excited about it. Is that wrong?

I feel that I can't let myself be excited about it, because more and more, I feel like it's not going to happen for us. I hate it when people ask me when we are going to have kids. I know they don't know any better, but it still sucks. What do you say?

Personally, if it's someone I don't know well, I just say someday. I hate telling people that we've been trying for over 2 yrs. I have to tell family though, because I feel like they have the right to know. It's very hard.